do you feel this
i say why you say there's an intensity there
do you feel the intensity here
when we exchange words of importance
then talk about fucking other people
i sit on my hands to not smash apart
the meaning i created that you helped place
in the center portion of my brain

if you stopped running for a second
you would realize that no amount of washing
erases the blood from your hands
you would realize that no amount of hurting
will make the butterflies escape from my chest cavity
i am the catch of the day that you tried to throw back
the chase is what you want and i am no longer the object
i have been had and i am still had
where is the fun of that

when you stop chasing everything you think you want
when you stop putting your long fingers inside the veins
of every other taken girl while you take and move on and forget
remember that i am here breathing the dust in of all your stories
shaking in my boots that still don't make me reach you

this is what eternity feels like
maybe it is me in this moment listening to your confessions
knowing that nothing you express will change my insides
the transformation already happened

this is eternity
me waiting for you